the time has come....

sometimes chasing your dreams can be the scariest thing. reason being is the failure of not achieving something that you so strongly desire. unfortunately failure is apart of life, its apart of our growing process as humans. on the other side though is achieving and accomplishment. fulfillment of finally reaching your goals that have been set out before you. growing up as a child i guess that i had big dreams but to me, thats all they were.... dreams and nothing more. even going through high school and college. dreams were dreams and reality was reality. for some strange reason i never expected big things to happen for me. ive always come up 2nd when it comes to life. i have always been so close but yet no cigar. then when i finally graduated college it kind of hit me. for some strange reason i never saw myself ever graduating college. why you ask? i have no idea, thats just what i thought. so then i graduated with nothing to look forward to. i had this big college degree that was suppose to qualify me for "big jobs" but yet i didnt feel that way. i still felt like an average guy who would only accomplish average things. then one day things started to click in my head. the choice of just letting life happen or the choice to make life happen came across my path. and for once i was going to make life happen and not sit back and watch great things pass me by. i was tired of settling for less. i was tired of waisting my talents that God instilled in me a long time ago. so i finally chose action over complacency. so from there i pursued dreams and goals. i still come up short in some but began to grow closer to others. now the time to achieve a goal is within my grasp. i can feel it on the edge of my fingertips. i will soon find out if all my efforts and energy will pay off from the past 3 or 4 months. am i scared? yeah, a bit. am i excited? heck ya. a bit nervous? of course. but with all that i still stand confident. i stand confident in the man that God has made me into. i stand confident in the characterstics that makes james rogers. i stand confident in the fact that im not an average joe, that im somebody special and different from most. so tomorrow i will go into the battlefield and let the real me shine to those who i come in contact with. its time to make life happen and to fight the good fight.....

trying to be patient...

so many things to say but yet i dont know what to say. so many things are going on in life and it seems to be changing by the week but yet at the same time certain things havent changed for a long while for me. so i ask myself " is the juice worth the squeeze"? is the risk worth the reward? i mean, i know it is but then again i stand hesistant. of what.... many things i guess. so where do i go from here? what do i say? what do i do? i know in the end things will work out how its suppose to but in the mean time its rough. timing has never been on my side with anything which has created different road blocks for me when it comes to life's little situations. hopefully ill figure something out when it comes to this and hopefully it wont be too late by the time i reach a conclusion. ill try to be patient and discern when the right time may be again to try things out. so until then...

Which will you choose....

We all live our life for different reason. And within the life that we live, different moments define us. Different situations are placed in front of us and how we handle those situations could change our life forever. But one question comes to mind for me, what separates someone from being great compared to just average? I believe we are all faced with different moments in our life to become great and do great things but for whatever reason we let those moments just pass us by and always wonder what if. For most of my life I have always just kind of sat back and to some extent, waited for great things to happen to me but that can only take a person so far. The time has come though for me to do great things, to take that next step and achieve the things that I truly believe I'm capable of doing. The results to different situations lie in our own hands. I cant expect someone else to do the work for me or hope that it will all work out. Some people say that maybe its not God's will that you achieve this or that He has something way better planned for you. Which in many aspects I do believe. But if I'm living my life in a way that glorifies Him, does it really matter what job I have? Will God not allow me to achieve certain goals because its not in His will? Will I mess up His sovereign plan if I do get this job? So many questions when it comes to this topic. But what if God has the door shut and locked but yet is sitting on the otherside of the door waiting to see if I will figure out still how to get it open? What if He purposely has made the road a lot tougher just to see how hard I will fight? So many questions that come to mind. The time has come though to put on my game face and make things happen. To gather up my confidence and let it shine throughout my actions. To put it all on the line and not hold back. No one ever achieved a dream by just sitting back and waiting on the dream to just happen. Hard work and dedication comes into accomplishing any dream or goal in life. So whatever fears or nerves that are within me will be pushed to the side and the time to be great will be upon me. Its do or die time...

Patiently Pursuing....

At times I feel that I have so much that I want to say but I hold back for whatever reason. I have never really been the person that keeps things in but for a good five or six months now I have learned to keep my mouth shut and let time run its course. Yet still at the same time there is so much that I want to say and do but choose to lay low, to pursue the different goals that I have set for myself right now. So we'll see I guess. Like you said a long while ago, out of sight but not out of mind... In time they say that people change and so do thoughts and emotions but for once I seem to have a developed a fond consistency of thoughts and what not which is kind of neat... We all live our lives with anticipation of what the future holds but in many aspects, the future is now, its constantly creeping up on us. And not that I'm anxious for the future, but rather I find myself confident and content with what the future holds for me... Like I said, the future is upon us and its time to make our futuristic goals a reality within our own lives. With that said, for some reason I find myself hesistant, afraid to make some of my dreams come to life right now. The past and failure way heavy on my thoughts when it comes to this. Not that I'm driven by the fear of failure but I guess I'm just a bit more contemplative and thoughtful on the subject. Afraid to make a good thing go bad... But such is life right now, full of life changing choices that could impact my life and others for the rest of our time here on earth. I just hope the choices make positive impacts instead of negative impacts. I'm tired of the negative, I want to make positive, life changing choices.... Hopefully timing will be on myside this time and not an enemy like previously. Bumps in the road will appear in this journey but I will not be shaken....So I'll continue to passinonately pursue the dreams of my heart that will hopefully direct me in my path of life. Hopefully one day passions will be combined and the road will grow wider to make room that special person and new dreams will be created to be chased after together.... but until then...

Throw The First Stone At Me....

Well... once again my overactive mind has gotten the best of me and is plagued with thoughts of all kinds. I try to silence the thoughts with music or words from others but still come up empty. One way or another I stand subjective to the words of my head and heart. From a glance you would never know of the struggles that plague my everyday life, the struggles that few know about and the struggles that I dont share with anyone. I live such an inconsistant life that it drives me crazy. There are days that I feel that I'm right on track and then there are days that I cant even find the track. But no matter what track I'm on the fight for righteousness burns within my soul. I will forever come up short of His glory but within that I pray to never lose the desire and will to fight the good fight. Imperfections will always be apart of my life which I feel at times will always be held over my head. But even through the thought of that I still share openly to those who actually care becuase I'm confident that my life's expereiences will one day be able to help another out and shed light on different situations. It seems that those things we are ashamed of the most will be the things that can help others overcome and defeat the problem before it arises within their life. Its not about pointing out the wrong in others lives but assesing the situations at hand and moving towards a better solution. Its not our job to condemn each other for our imperfections that we all have but rather to build up and encourage each other in this thing called life. Its ironic that we who are imperfect so quickly cast judgement upon one another. We who judge others will one day be judged twice as hard from someone who is perfect and blameless. The thought of that is kind of scary for me. "He who is without sin cast the first stone". This quote speaks truth no matter what you believe in. Its not our job to condemn those whose faults show more so than "ours".... This blog kind of came out of no where. When it comes to this topic I really didnt even had it in mind when i picked up the keyboard but there you have it. Definately a convicting blog for myself and no matter how much I feel that I'm improving in this subject I still get reminded in different ways of what my role is within this topic.

Process Of Thoughts....

Well, once again life has creeped up on me and has overloaded my brain to the point to where its hard to sleep again. Sometimes my brain is thinking so much that I cant get a good nights rest and I wake up tired even though I slept the night away. But I guess this time its a little different for me, im actually doing something with my life. Im not just sitting around waiting for life to happen. Im not waiting for the "voice of GOD" to break through the clouds to tell me what to do. Too many times as believers we do nothing with life becuase we are waiting on God's will. We are trying so hard to find out what God's will is for our life we end up doing nothing with life itself. We search and search but seem to come up empty. For me this excuse is no long valid when it comes to life. Being complacent and "waiting on His will" in no way shape or form is doing His will, its actually quite the opposite. God did give us the power of choice. And we can choose to do nothing or we can choose to do something. Part of me truly believes that it doesnt matter what you do, that He just wants to see if we will take the initiative to do something with our lives. If we are truly focused on Him and actively living a life that is changing others eternally, then we are doing His will, no matter where you're at location wise or job wise.... My roommate said that in his ethics class the other day they were talking about people that quit their jobs to join the ministry. Him and I kind of laughed about that becuase its an oxymoron. I think thats what most people think though, but if we are kingdom focused all the time, any job we do would be our ministry... Then comes the struggle of where to go, what choice will be the right one. And basically if we base our decision on the right principles of what we believe any choice will be the right one. We serve a big GOD, no matter where we are He will meet us, thats what is great about our God. The key though is remember who He is and His attributes. He is soveriegn, He is immutable, forever unchanging, do we really think that our little lives will screw up His sovereign will? I highly doubt that.... He calls us to be active followers not complacent believers that wait for Him to make our choices for us. He gives us the passions and desires of our hearts, let those things guide your choices with what you do in life. But remember, those things He places on our hearts our made to glorify Him, not please our selfish hearts. He wants us to live a life that pleases Him and sitting on our butts "waiting" is not pleasing to Him.... Stop waiting for life to happen and start making life happen. You would be amazed how much more you will see God moving in your life when you just choose to take action.

Dont Live Life Just Becuase....

Sometimes i sit and wonder where my life is going. not that its going nowhere but sometimes i wish i could see into the future to see where ill be at in 6 months. Will i still be here in cali? will i be working at a school doing what im most passionate about? will i still be here in whittier? or will i finally accomplish a short term goal and become an exec. at Target? I guess only time will tell for me... My heart these days is burdened for people that have no direction in life. Who live life just cuase and when i asked why they have no answer. My heart is burdened for those who are seeking help. Seeking Truth or just signifigance in who they are as a person.... Working at a school or a camp is something that i've been passionate about for a while now and have felt that working in those two environments would help me live out the passions that GOD has laid upon my heart. And i still firmly believe that but i cant deny what doors HE is opening for me in a whole new realm that i am so unfamiliar with. The bubble that cal bap created for me is finally gone! the real world is such a crazy place. You really find out what your made of when your out on your own. There is no guarentees like there was at school. I knew with school that i would have a place to live for 9 months and at least 7 meals a week. That all disappeared when i left cal bap and life got real, real quick. But even though that my life has no guarantees anymore, im loving it. Im finally finding out who i am and what im made out of. And within that im ready to start making a change in peoples lives for HIM. Im no longer waiting for things to just happen for me. Im going out and acheiving and persueing my passions and dreams and what a great feeling that is. And who would of thought that Target has played a big part in making all this a reality for me. go figure! So its time to no longer let dreams be dreams, but yet make those dreams become reality. Give me two years and prepare to be amazed. Not of what im doing, but yet what HE is doing through me!