...Well I would walk around the earth, To have another chance with you...

Another late night and I find myself here by my computer so I felt like writing a blog. School is for sure out for the summer and the dorms I live in are DEAD! The only sign of life is when the Admissions Counselors from our school come down my hall and key into my room trying to show new students what the dorms look like. Even though they always key in and come to realize that its my apartment, it seems that as soon as they shut the door they forget what just happened cause the next day they do the same freakin thing! But whatever, just a part of livin in the dorms.
Overall my week has been good, very slow but good. Surprisingly doing some GA work by helping out with interviews and what not for the GA staff for next year. Hooch is gone for the week on a cruise to Mexico with all her friends livin the life and catchin some rays while the rest of us are stuck here in Riverside. Sometimes life doesn't seem fair! haha. Even though she is only gone for a week it seems like forever. Nothing to get suicidal over but definitely not fun being away from her. Normally the phone would fill the distance gap but for some odd reason cell phones don't work out in the open ocean! But any who, she comes back on Friday so I'm pretty stoked about that. It's been a long time coming it seems for Ruth and I and now that its here it seems that we are both busy with going on trips. Not a bad thing at all but when you experience someone as great as her, all you want to do is be around her. So the weekend will be nice then starting on Monday it will be no so nice til the end of June. So ill be sure not to take my time for grant it with you Hooch so hurry up and get back!

... if I lay here, if I just lay here, would you lie with me and just forget the world...

I feel the need to just write but I'm not too sure what words to say. Life this past month and a half has been amazing. I feel and see Gods blessings so much these days. I've been blessed with a job as an RD at GCU, I have been blessed with amazing friends, a great family as in my mom and sis and them and have been extremely blessed with an amazing girlfriend! I feel as if right now that GOD has opened my eyes up to see the world in such a new way. I feel that He has broken through some of the layers in my soul and has revived it in a very special way. I feel like He has been really working on my mind and heart this past school year. I have seen a lot of who I am from my past and how I let the past still affects me to this day. I was able to share with Ruth a little bit tonight about my dad and my life without him and stuff and through talking to her it finally kind of hit me that I'm not the man my dad is. That I'm not even going in that same direction. For most of my life I have been afraid that I would reflect his life with mine. And finally 26 years later it hit me personally for the first time, that I'm James Rogers not Jay Rogers. I'm my own person and I owe it all to Jesus Christ. Its because of Christ that I can hold my head up proudly and trust in the fact the love that comes from Him is unconditional and perfect! And He showers that love over me everyday in spite of all my imperfections. I still have a hard time of understanding why He would do that but I think its because I don't fully understand what it is to love unconditionally. But what I do know is that God is amazing and that He creates amazing people and puts them in our lives at the perfect times! And as I drove home tonight reflecting on my life and where I have been and where I am going I am thankful for the Lord putting you in my life. Thanks for fighting my fears for me without even knowing it! My heart is at peace when I am with you and feels safe when it thinks about you. Thanks for being you!

... I keep a close watch on this heart of mine...

So much to say but words could never do justice about the one that the Lord has blessed me with. Its been a long time coming but finally a sincere commitment has been made on my end and hers. My fears of having a girlfriend once again, have vanished and the excitement of where this journey will go has set in. And whats even more exciting is that close friends and family are on board as well as we start off down this path. I have no idea what the future holds for us and wont make any empty promises of how it will all end up. But what I do know is that my heart smiles each time its in your presence and that your company is truly appreciated. There is so much more I could say but I'll keep it short for now. Thanks for being you Ruth and don't ever stop smiling! Gods got big plans for you and I'm thankful that at least for this season of your life that I get to be apart of that! Never give up on your dreams and the passions of your heart. With people like you on the this earth there is hope that this world can become a better place. Continue to show the love of Christ to all those you come in contact with and never forget who you are in Him! That's all for now.. see ya soon! : )

...forget the past and focus on the man that you want to become...

So I'll start off with the pic. Why did I pic this picture to put? And my answer is," Why not"! This pic makes me laugh so I felt like being random and putting up a picture that has nothing to do with this blog!

Any who. Schools out for the summer and its boring as heck here at CBU! I need to get a job asap and make some green that way i cant eat for the next few months! And if I can make enough maybe I can go on a date or two here before I take off to the AZ! Eventually I should probably start going through my apartment and getting rid of stuff that I don't need. I'm such a pack rat and I keep EVERYTHING cause I'm crazy like that. But all in all it would probably be a good move on my part to start going through my crap and consolidating. I think once I start doing that and going through my stuff and start boxin some stuff up the reality of me leaving will hit. As of right now my mind knows I'm about to leave but it just doest seem real yet. But I'm sure reality will hit really hard when I'm stripped of the privilege of seeing you everyday. I'm not excited about the separation but there's not much I can do about it at this point but embrace it. Physical separation though wont cause my mind to separate from the thoughts of you. You may be out of sight but definitely will not be out of mind! Africa will be a big test but its a test that I believe we'll pass with flying colors! So until next time, enjoy the pic! : )

...gvie me the beat boys and free my soul, I wanna get lost in your rock and roll...

Well here I am again. I am trying to be a faithful blogger but I must admit its quite hard to keep this thing up to date everyday. But whatever. School is boring as all get out now that everyone is gone. And the friends that are still here have lives and jobs and what not and are busy all day which is cool ya know. I cant be mad at my friends for gettin paid ya know! So today I mainly just sad around all day. Went to Harvest's Bookstore with Lucas, had dinner with Brad, helped Hooch pack up some of her apt., got to meet Cooper's man, re-strung my guitar, checked out Timmy from the dorms. As you can see over-all my day was pretty eventful : P. So I guess I have a lot to look forward to this month! But I did get to hang out with you tonight which made my day well worth it! I like the fact that we are on the same page with things. It makes my heart smile which feels weird cause it feels like forever since it has last done that genuinely. The future still is a bit unknown but that's OK, cause we don't live in the future, we live in the present! So I'll continue to seek GOD in all of this and pray the His guiding hand is apart of all of this.

... round here, we always stand up straight.. round here, something radiates...

Well its late Monday night and I'm beat tired. Walking around all day in the hot sun is not very energizing but the one who I was walking around with in the hot sun all day made it worth it. Overall though it was a great day. For most of the day I felt like a little kid again not knowing how to act around you. Everything seems to be so new again that I'm not really too sure what to say or do. Anyways, why write all this in a blog when I can just say it to your face! : )

So for all my blog fans that actually read my crazy blogs, I must say that life is good. Confusing and a bit nerve racking but good! Taking leaps of faith in life is never an easy thing but when that faith is put completely in GOD its well worth the leap! It seems that the LORD has used this past year to help me establish my career and has provided my first RD job for me through GCU, which is very exciting. So as I look back at this year I don't see it as a waste, which is nice because that is the last thing I wanted to do with this year was waste it. But like I said before that GOD is good and He knows what He is doing! And now that my career seems to be a bit secured, or at least for 10 months it seems that I'm able to put some time and attention into other areas of my life that I've put on hold for a while. It just hard when your career is pulling you away from something so great ya know. But in situations like this they say you have to ask yourself this one question, " is the juice worth the squeeze"? And I know that from my end it definitely is! Also I know that the LORD has been faithful to establish a path for me in Res Life so I will continue to remain faithful that He will do the same in my personal life. The risk is definitely worth the reward my friend but it takes two to make a thing go right! So yes friends, life is going, a little bit different than planned but sometimes the unknown things in life are the most exciting. And as for the picture I put up, its not up there because of the ugly guy in it holding the guitar but its because of the one who took the pic. Peace easy!

... if I could be like that, I would give anything....

So I am actually writing a blog in the afternoon for once and I must admit that it feels kind of weird. But now that school is out there is not to much to do right now. This morning I helped give an interview for a Grad Assistant spot here at CBU. And now I'm just kind of waiting for lunch to hit so that I can go eat. Graduation is tomorrow and its a pretty exciting time for some of my friends. Graduating college is a big deal it seems like. We are told our whole lives that we are suppose to graduate high school and then go to college. But once you finally graduate college its like whats next! I mean, all you ever hear growing up is about college and how you're suppose to go. No one ever talks about what comes after. But also now days a college degree isn't good enough it seems. You have to go back for more schooling and get your Masters degree! It never ends it seems! But any who, I am proud of my friends that have endured the trials and bumps in the road here at school and finished the race. Be proud of your accomplishments. Graduating from college is a big deal!

And as for me it feels like life is changing by the day for me. Pretty soon I will out of California and in Arizona. The distance will grow from those I care about the most once again but for good reason. Hopefully the rest of my time spent here at CBU will be fun. I'm not too sure how my summer is going to look. It's going to be a pain in the butt trying to relocate my life once again. I'm not really fond of moving, ever! It's one of those things that bug me, kind of like laundry. I hate doing both!!! But GOD is good and even though I'm not sure about certain things I can always be certain of HIM, which is comforting! So until next time...

...selah... the LORD, is a warrior....I will not fear what man can do to me...

So its another late night and I should be in bed but I'm not really tired so here I am writing a blog! Exciting I know. Any who, today was my last day coaching my boys from Corona High School. I couldn't be prouder of the...se bunch of guys. They played their hearts out all season and because of their heart and effort they ended up with a great winning record. It was a sad day though telling the guys that I wouldn't be coming back next year. They were all a bit sad which makes it a bit harder to say goodbye from so. cal. Hopefully though I can come back and visit them next year and check out one of their games and surprise them. So mad props to my Corona Boys. You will always hold a special place in my heart. Be proud of yourselves!!!




So yesterday I ended up writing a new song. I think I'm going to call it "once again". Its not very easy sometimes for me to get my thoughts out onto paper when it comes to writing songs but every once in a while it seems to flow so well. That doesn't mean though that the song is any good but it is a glimpse into my mind and heart. Songs can be so powerful at times its kind of scary. They can either be pick me uppers or downers. Most of my songs aren't the most positive because I feel that people relate better to sad songs. But occasionally I try to throw in a happy song. I would say this song isn't necessarily a sad one but more of me sayin, hey, I'm an idiot! Any who, there is no real point to this blog basically but at least its not emo! Music and Volleyball, its a big part of my life so I thought I would share a bit with any who care to read this blog. So until then, peace easy!