Bitter Sweet Emotions....

One is the lonliest number! aint that so true. i mean being single definately has its perks. for the most part its drama free. you dont find yourself getting pissed off at the little things. as oppose to dating you become more irritable. funny how that works out. but being single you can just live and do whatever you want and not have to worry about another person. you're free to be more spuratic. but then again your lonely. always alone by yourself wishing that you had someone to just talk to or do something with. when ur dating someone its like a guaranteed hang out time. you dont have to plan it 3 days in advance or anything like that, its a given. which is nice at times. being single vs. dating is always such a bitter sweet thing. they both have so many perks.... its tough being in a relatoinship though. you have to give and put a lot of energy into making it work. there is the whole getting to know that person stage. the whole breaking through the walls that the other person has put up becuase of different life situations or from previous hurtful relationships. and at the same time breaking down your own walls making yourself vulnrable to being hurt again. its kind of scary when u think about it. theres nothing worse than having your heart broke by someone. thats why it seems so much easier to just be single. no heart break! but then again theres no love. deep down inside we all want to be deisred and loved by someone. we want to be captured by the beauty of that other person. to where u just want to stare at them all day long cause their beauty is so captivating. we want to find someone who is going to give their all in all to make it work out. but even in a world filled with millions, i feel that i may never meet that one person. part of me wants to search for her but part of me wants to just let it go. being lonley sucks but giving your heart to someone for them to only disregard it sucks even more. so im hesitant to get attatched to anyone these days. and then there is always the fear of rejection. the fear that you'll never match up to their standards. i mean, a person can only hear that your a great guy but i dont want to date you so many times. but whatever. just some thoughts going through my head right now. dont worry, im not suicidal or anything like that. i dont enjoy being lonely all the time but i do love life. and yes i know that all my desires can only be filled from HIM so please no lectures. these are just some simple thoughts from a simple guy.